Grateful for this Journey

In the throes of addiction, no road is smooth, it’s jagged, rocky, and perilous. Life rarely follows a straight line — and when addiction takes the wheel, every curve becomes a potential cliff. Looking back at how I lived sends chills through me; surviving that chapter was nothing short of a miracle.

My danger didn’t come from driving a vehicle — it came from attempting to navigate my life while impaired. I existed in a vicious cycle: drinking, coming to, drinking, and passing out. Alcohol was a poison I consumed relentlessly, regardless of the consequences. It was painful and heartbreaking, even when I wanted to stop, I couldn’t  — and I wouldn’t ask for help.

In the grip of addiction, it was easy to blame the world for my pain. Beyond the physical toll of the hangovers, I was suffocated by resentment and a soul-crushing loneliness. I wasn’t just broke; I was broken. Addiction hijacked my mind, leading to choices that cost me jobs, years with my family, and friendships. I lost myself entirely.

Today, I’m grateful, blessed, and forever humbled to be on this journey.  Because of the strength of a 12-step program and a commitment to the work, I’m no longer wandering blindly. Sobriety has given me a roadmap for an amazing life — and to stay on this path I will continue to follow directions.  Thank you for being part of my recovery. 

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Barbara

barb@togetheraz.com