Shining a Light on Darkness

By Juliana Rose Teal

 

My first book, Flying to Freedom: Healing From Ritual Abuse Through My Life’s Work and Flight, was recently published. I began to think about writing a memoir over a decade ago, as people who learned about my past told me they were inspired by how I healed from the abuse I endured.

Flying to Freedom describes how my work as an astrologer and energy healer, and how becoming a pilot, helped me heal from the emotional, physical, and satanic ritual abuse that I endured in my childhood and young adulthood.

In my memoir, I share that my career and becoming a pilot were completely unexpected paths. I began my university years planning to major in molecular biology, but eventually realized the scientific field was not for me. I changed my major to psychology, which I found interesting. After I graduated, I could not find a job that felt like a fit, until astrology found me.

Since I was a child, I suffered from a phobia of flying. But when I was in my 30s, on a commercial flight to California, the phobia lifted. As I connected to the beauty of the sky and clouds, I decided I wanted to try a flight in a small plane. My fear was replaced with a passion for flying and I pursued a pilot’s license.

Though my goal in writing Flying to Freedom was to shine light on the dark topic of satanic ritual abuse, my book is about healing. For this reason, scenes of my life, my work, and flying far outweigh scenes of abuse. My memoir is divided into five parts and only one part contains scenes of satanic ritual abuse.

One of the intentions I held when writing was to show survivors of ritual and other types of abuse they can have a good life, even if they have experienced trauma. The scars might remain, but by creating a healthy network of support, and by pursuing passions, joy can be found. As we overcome our past, finding ways to help others can bring additional healing and fulfillment.

Many of my readers assume that writing Flying to Freedom was difficult for me. Though I had times of intense feelings, writing my memoir was not hard. I was enamored with the process of writing and was excited to be fulfilling a life-long dream of writing a book. But publishing it was difficult for me. My husband and my close friends all knew about my background. My clients and acquaintances did not know I was a ritual abuse survivor. I felt vulnerable as I disclosed my past, but I persevered, for I felt having this book out in the world was important.

 

Healing Through Words on a Page

Publishing has brought me healing. At times, when I read my words to another person, I can connect emotionally to what happened to me in a deeper way. I am not sure why this happens, but I find it easier to emote and release grief when I hear my written stories spoken out loud. Seeing what I went through in black and white helps me to be more compassionate towards myself. Many survivors struggle with self-acceptance and compassion of self, often blaming themselves for their trauma reactions. I have learned to be gentler with myself because of my book.

Over the last few months, I have been contacted by abuse survivors who have read my memoir. They have let me know that it has brought them much healing. I cannot begin to describe how heart-warming it is to hear people’s reactions. Knowing that survivors find healing within my book’s pages means the world to me. Several therapists have contacted me as well. They have let me know they feel my memoir is inspirational, and that they now have more of an understanding of what satanic ritual abuse survivors live through. It makes me happy to know that it has broadened their knowledge of this topic.

I hope those that have suffered from trauma continue to find healing as they read my book.

 

Flying to Freedom is available at Amazon: https://a.co/d/i25smIf

Antigone Books (411 N 4th Ave Tucson, AZ) 

Mostly Books (6208 E Speedway Blvd, Tucson, AZ)

 

Be sure to visit https://www.JulianaRoseTeal.com